Thursday, November 26, 2015

A thankful letter to Monroe (Guest Writer Nikkee Fleming, Monroe's Mom)

Dear Monroe, 

I wanted to take time on this great thanksgiving day to tell you why I am thankful for you. You came into my life and for quite some time I never knew it I would get to experience anything with you. Doctors told me you wouldn't make it into this world and if you did you wouldn't be here long. I prayed and prayed for you to make it through. I pleaded with God to please let me have this baby and I will take all the challenges and not complain about it. I did ask him for two things when I pleaded. I asked him to bring you to me safely and to let you have lots of long dark locks of hair like I did as a baby. On thanksgiving 2010 I did not know what the future held for the baby I was carrying safely. I just knew my job as your mom was to keep you safe and let God handle the rest. I did fight and fight to get you the best care I could and planned for all the care you would need for your joints after you were born. One thing I did not prepare myself for was the possibility of you changing my life the way you have. You have given me more purpose and a reason to fight every day. Your little 4 lb 14 oz self-came into my life fighting and together we fought and together we will always fight. I know I am so lucky to have you with me. You fought so hard and you were so small. You showed me what really matters in life and that is our health and our family. You had a really hard start at life with continuing odds against you. I never thought my baby would have to have so many surgeries just to be able to breathe. I am thankful that you are able to breathe on your own without a tracheostomy. I am thankful you can eat now without depending on your tube to feed you. I am thankful for your smiling face looking at me every morning. Going through pictures of your life I found it hard to find many without you smiling. I also found it hard to relive some of the incredibly difficult things we had to go through together. Monroe, you have saved me more than you will ever know. You saved me from taking anything for granted... Ever! People may have come and gone but we have always had each other and I am thankful for your love and faith in me. I'm thankful for every hospital stay that has reminded me how lucky I am to have you here with me. You constantly remind me to cherish all the small things. We celebrate everything you do and we don't take it for granted. Dressing yourself, going potty alone, brushing your own hair and teeth, cleaning up all your toys. These are all things most parents don't even think twice about, but I know as you grow closer to completing the each of these that I am profoundly blessed to have you in my life. I am blessed that you are able to accomplish all you have and you will accomplish so much more. I love you and I am thankful for you and the journey you have allowed me to take with you. I look forward to each and every day I get to spend with you, my little peanut.

If you would like to stay in touch with Monroe and Nikkes's journey please visit Dear Monroe by clicking HERE

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